Life and Love

There are many things I can say about both Life and Love.

Life is an on going lesson. These lessons are learned on a moment by moment basis. Everything is a lesson. What did I learn today? I learned that Hot Buttered Rum isn't to my liking and that Punk and Heavy Metal Christmas music is fun to listen to. Especially in order to break up the traditional music. I  have learned many things in my life. About three years ago I learned that being kind has to have limits and that it isn't always good to give people a chance. I was also reminded that a person should always pay attention to what is said. Unfortunately, not everyone (well most people actually) has a dementedly warped sense of humor as  I do. Hence most people will accuse you of doing what they are or would do. Most people will tell you what they are doing wrong in a joking manner. The hard part is I am a good person. I joke with people a lot and most of the time if it sounds bad or outragous I am probably joking. So the hard part for me is remembering that I am not most people. What I would do isn't what most people would do. Ever since I can remember I kept getting reminded I don't think like most  people. Sometimes this is a good thing other times it causes me problems. Thinking like most of the people I have met isn't  something I want to do. There are a lot of people in this world who are fine with hurting people. There are a lot of people who use people. A lot of people lie to others and then try to justify it as if there reasons make it alright. People will tell another person what they want to hear in order to get what they want or under the guise of they don't want to hurt them. Am I guilty of some of these things? I have  never been fine with hurting anyone. That isn't to say that I haven't hurt people. What I am saying is I never went out to hurt anyone or took pleasure in hurting someone. I have never used anyone. I would never use any one. Ask for help yes, but never purposely use anyone. I have lied to people and tried to justify it. The difference is I have learned lying gets you no where. It doesn't fix anything  or protect anyone. It just creates more problems then the truth will. Unless you are talking the Underground Railroad or Nazi Germany. Totally different scenarios then most of us will ever be in. I don't tell people what they want to hear. Does it get me in trouble? Oh ya it does. The thing is at least they know where they stand and if they didn't want to know then they shouldn't have asked. Sometimes I try to avoid their questions, but they insist. I am not going to lie. Getting caught in a lie is worse in the long run then telling the truth in the beginning. The fact is this. Most of what I know I know, because I learned the hard way or from someone else who did. I am not the smartest person. If I was I wouldn't have had to learn some of the things  I did. I would have known before hand.We all make mistakes that is how we learn.

Love. This word scares some people and others chase it down like  it is the cure  all. I  kind of fall some where in between these. I am not  scared to love someone. I am not afraid to be loved. I am however afraid of believing someone loves me who doesn't. I don't believe love is the cure all. I  do however believe  it is the greatest gift of all. In so believing  I sometimes chase after it when I should just let it go. The thing is love is a lot like life. It is a lesson in progress. I really don't have any answers about love other than when you should really run. I know when  to run, because I know the signs after being there so often. If only I knew  the signs when I was in the middle of it then I could get out sooner. As for finding the right one? I have no answers on that. I haven't found him. From what I hear and have seen with the people who have it is something really special. It will be that person who stays around even when you act like a lunatic and that you decide to stand by even when they act crazy due to emotions getting in the way. The key is to find the person who doesn't push you over that invisible line and that you don't push over their invisible line.

The point is Life and Love are  both about learning and finding out what is right for you. We all are different and what is right for me won't be right for you. The key is to learn from our mistakes and maybe other people's as well. Then figure out what we want in both Life and Love.